Saturday, January 8, 2011

New Direction in Life

As I lay in bed one night, trying to sleep, an epiphany beat me in the face (all my epiphanies tend to do so at the same time and in the same manner). I realized that I am most likely not pursuing God's will for me in the art path, but I should instead pursue business. Now, I did not immediately jump into it; in fact, I was loathe to completely change what I had spent my last few years doing. But upon further prayer and reflection of my life and mannerisms, I feel God is definitely pushing me in the direction of business. The reasons are as follows:

1. I don't really spend much, if any, of my free time on art pursuits. Art is something that, typically, requires metric crap tons of time to become phenomenal. Alongside that, a great artist is passionate about his work to the point that it is a natural past time. Over the years, I have increased my artistic abilities through classwork, but never developed that overwhelming desire to create art from my own whims.

2. I have always been fascinated by the inner workings of businesses. I very much love and (on occasion) idealize the structures found in successful companies. For me, it's to the point that I naturally try to defend a corporation when any shady practices are reported. I do delve further into the reports, though, and often find the business is in the wrong. I haven't begun to sprout horns and a tail quite yet.

3. I am a natural leader. This doesn't mean I'm a GREAT leader quite yet. That's going to take experience and a drive to better myself. But I tend to take charge, or be put in charge, of situations/groups/employees. Leadership is something I've apparently had for quite some time, but I never saw in myself until a few years ago. During middle school, my teachers held an unofficial awards ceremony for the students. They decided to award me with the "Future CEO of a Fortune 500 Company" award. I took it with grace, but never once considered at the time that it was something I may actually want to do.

With those reasons, I do believe God has me doing this for some reason or another. But I could be wrong altogether. Who knows? I'm only human.